Spencer

My True Self

I have learned that I am quite a complex person with a lot of different parts and ways of being. A lot of the time I feel really fortunate to have found so much of myself, to have the gifts that I carry, and to have found my true nature. In so many moments I’ve discovered that I am a person who is very heart forward, and someone who has the utmost compassion for every being I’ve ever come across. Sometimes I find this version of me with ease, and it makes me feel very special and lucky. I am often a person who wants to create and sing and be joyous and dance around. I’m a person who loves to be in nature and move my body and learn about my body through movement and physical expression.

My Adversity…

And I’m also a person who has come across a lot of opposition to my true nature. And I’ve embodied a lot of those oppositional forces over the course of my life. Looking back on it now I feel like I’ve let those forces take over me, or take me, even though they aren’t me. They have become my way, and guided my thought processes and emotional states and patterns.

How I’ve Become Who I Am

I’ve spent pretty much my whole adult life developing a hyper and deep sense of emotional self awareness. It’s a practice that, at first, was born out of survival. But one of my favorite things in life is to turn patterns that we learn out of survival into super powers. I’ve been very committed to growth and evolution for a very long time. Through that journey two supportive forces have become imperative to my life, and they are purpose and passion. They have given me life and direction. And they are something I hold close in my darkest moments, to keep even just a flicker of faith alive in my heart. The gifts and offerings I’ve discovered about myself feel completely linked to purpose and passion.

Goals, Dreams, & the Importance of Helping

When I speak about wanting to do energy work with people, or play music or sound journeys for people, or work with psychedelics, or even just talk deeply about life and discover parts of ourselves and reframe perspectives and stories that we carry that limit us, all of it feels like why I’m here. To help people heal and find their own true nature. To help people shed their opposing forces because I’ve been able to shed so many of mine. When I’ve been able to do that in the past, it feels like my heart is on fire in the best way possible. It makes me feel so incredibly alive. I think it’s the best feeling I’ve ever felt. It makes me feel incredible to witness someone choose themself and embody their true-ness. To be able to support that process is everything to me.

Belief

I am a man of faith. I know that has meant a lot of things in the past generations, but what it means to me is I believe. I believe in what is happening on this planet, at this time. I believe there is an importance to and an orchestration by our souls, for life to play out just as it is. I believe in divine connection and divine timing. And I believe that we are all being guided by something much more grand than ourselves. So much of my life’s work is to come closer to that, more in alignment. To continue believing and actually letting it guide me toward my purpose and passion. I have begun a relationship with the spirit world that is daunting and invigorating. I really believe it is important to care for our spiritual/energetic selves just as it is important to care for our mental, emotional, and physical selves and I’m in a process of learning that, and many other things always.

Balance

One of my gifts is a natural groundedness. This also means that it is often difficult for me to connect with a more spiritual or etheric way, because of a natural tether to the Earth. Another discovery I am always seeking is the balance between masculine and feminine. Both in the worldy forces of this planet but also within myself. I feel that finding balance in all of these things is an essential part of my life and how I choose to live now, and going forward.