“As you start walking the way, the way appears.”
– Rumi
And so it was, just like in any hero’s journey, all kinds of allies and helpers started to show up to assist me in the way. The way took me into getting instructed in shamanism which led me to sit with plant medicine for a while back in 2014. It was impactful in the sense that it reconnected me with that part of myself that was lost in childhood through socialization. The wildish, magical, spiritually inclined part of me started to emerge and with it the realization that there was no way back anymore but only further into the forest of my soul. The recovery of all the pieces that have been shattered, repressed, stunted by trauma, shame, and guilt was going to be a long path needing endurance and patience.
Even though plant medicine had provided an amazing initiation for me, I felt that I wasn’t able to fully distill the richness of the experiences and integrate them back into my life, so I left. I left and went on training and learning as much as I could. By then, I knew that not only I was on this path for myself, but that I was called into service to others. I wanted to companion and help other midwife their full-whole-soul-selves into their lives.
As a child growing up in the southern hemisphere, I was fascinated by the stars. My grandfather and uncle were astronomers-aficionado and had telescopes that they used to teach me about the constellations, the stars, the stories behind them. So, when I found psychological astrology that felt like a natural fit for me. The deep study of Astrology led me to work of Carl Jung, Transpersonal Psychology, and Stan Grof (founder of Holotropic Breathwork).
A new cycle of deep transformation hit again as I found myself starting Holotropic Training in 2018. Another descent was in the way, this time I knew what it would require of me, and this didn’t make it easier, just more familiar. In Holotropic training I learnt how to navigate non-ordinary states of consciousness, how to be fully present and witness anything that emerges within me and others, how to facilitate difficult processes and companion others in their journey of self-discovery. During these years many new connections leading to new expanded paths were made while most of my life as I knew it was falling apart. One of these connections made me become a Soul-Centered Coach and go into yet another deep journey of healing, deepening, and self-exploration while becoming a guide to others.
It was also during this time that I felt the call of grandmother (plant medicine) once again and by now I knew I had more navigational skills and tools to work with it.